Crushes (And the men I just won't have)

C: We met on grindr (well...we managed to go months without even mentioning sex, so?) around 4 months ago.  He's very nice, interesting, handsome.  Has his own life going on.

Pros:

Attractive

Knowledgeable
Multilingual
Sexual
Short

Cute voice

Hairy chest

Cons:

Distance

Weight Issues

Needs someone that's there.

Outcome: Things got a bit rocky then he deleted me from facebook.  I get a little upset when I see his face in places where it won't go away.  That's that though.  Oh well.

R: We started talking online years ago until my ex ruined that, which sucked cause he was a pretty awesome guy back then.  We talk online now and I had the chance to approach him but decided not to cause he was talking to someone else.  (Who was far more handsome than me.) (I know...I know...in my defense I was headed straight for my favorite fighting game and I didn't want to interrupt.)

Pros:

Good looking

Gamer

Cute pun-y name

Nice

In my age range

Cons:

I'm not sure he knows I like him, and it's not like I plan on telling him.
My life isn't even in the proper state to date right now anyways.
I'm pretty sure he's crushing on a guy that he can't indicate it to either. (and in some way i wish it was me :p)

In progress: I still think he's attractive but I find him less so as a person as time goes by.  It's not like I'm doing anything in regards to him anyways.

J: Grindr.  Nice to spend time with.

Pros:

J is very much an awesome, nice, kind guy with good taste.  He's fun and I enjoy hangin with him.
Gamer

Good taste

Reader

Eats

Dedicated

Negative:

Not my type in the same way that he is my type.

He's having a hard time right now, and I understand that.  But I dislike the way he handled one particular situation that he has to stay responsible for anyways.

In progress: We still talk and hang.  He's having some issues with where we stand.  I think he needs to handle them a bit better, but I'm here to help.

Alex: An interesting one.  I partially don't like that he's white but I get the feeling that he's one of the best people I know, hands down.  I find myself smiling at him from across the room.

I've let my other crushes fall to the wayside, they've turned me down and found lovers later on, or I've just been a stupid piece of shit and fucked things up during the process and could have landed a great guy otherwise.

Minor Blips:

I hung with one guy after talking awhile.  We didn't do anything sexual.  I said hi and he didn't respond back for half a month.  He tried to have sex with me without directly stating it, then asked to date.  I turned him down and he went the whole "I've got plenty of other guys." route.  I guess getting turned down is hard.  I know it is.