Pepper Potts

I like Pepper Potts, a lot.

I'm a little confused about pof.com.  People can block you on there but you can still see their profiles.  I'm not even sure how you block people on there.

In My Head

Drumming Song by Florence + The Machine
“Louder than sirens, louder than bells.  Sweeter than heaven and hotter than hell.”
“But as the water fills my mouth; it couldn’t wash the echoes out.”
“As I move my feet towards your body I can hear them speak.  It fills my head up and gets louder and louder.”
“There’s a drumming noise inside my head, and it starts when you’re around.  I swear that you could hear it – it makes such an almighty sound.”

Mushaboom by Feist
“In the meantime a guarded heart – searching for a living without a yard.  It may be years until the day my dreams will matchup with my pay.”

Breakfast After 10 by Blue October
“Just pick your head up and walk away.  Walk the coolest walk you know cause in a month or two she’ll call you: Hang up the phone.”

In No Time by Mutemath
“And I bet we’ll find it in no time at all.”

The Hand That Feeds by NIN
“But inside your heart it is black and it’s hollow and it’s cold.”

Called Out In The Dark by Snow Patrol
“This is your life, this is your time.”

How To Be Dead by Snow Patrol
“Please keep your hands down and stop raising your voice.  It’s hardly what I’d be doing if you gave me a choice.”
“You’re a big boy now so let’s not talk about growth.”

Crushes (And the men I just won't have)

C: We met on grindr (well...we managed to go months without even mentioning sex, so?) around 4 months ago.  He's very nice, interesting, handsome.  Has his own life going on.

Pros:

Attractive

Knowledgeable
Multilingual
Sexual
Short

Cute voice

Hairy chest

Cons:

Distance

Weight Issues

Needs someone that's there.

Outcome: Things got a bit rocky then he deleted me from facebook.  I get a little upset when I see his face in places where it won't go away.  That's that though.  Oh well.

R: We started talking online years ago until my ex ruined that, which sucked cause he was a pretty awesome guy back then.  We talk online now and I had the chance to approach him but decided not to cause he was talking to someone else.  (Who was far more handsome than me.) (I know...I know...in my defense I was headed straight for my favorite fighting game and I didn't want to interrupt.)

Pros:

Good looking

Gamer

Cute pun-y name

Nice

In my age range

Cons:

I'm not sure he knows I like him, and it's not like I plan on telling him.
My life isn't even in the proper state to date right now anyways.
I'm pretty sure he's crushing on a guy that he can't indicate it to either. (and in some way i wish it was me :p)

In progress: I still think he's attractive but I find him less so as a person as time goes by.  It's not like I'm doing anything in regards to him anyways.

J: Grindr.  Nice to spend time with.

Pros:

J is very much an awesome, nice, kind guy with good taste.  He's fun and I enjoy hangin with him.
Gamer

Good taste

Reader

Eats

Dedicated

Negative:

Not my type in the same way that he is my type.

He's having a hard time right now, and I understand that.  But I dislike the way he handled one particular situation that he has to stay responsible for anyways.

In progress: We still talk and hang.  He's having some issues with where we stand.  I think he needs to handle them a bit better, but I'm here to help.

Alex: An interesting one.  I partially don't like that he's white but I get the feeling that he's one of the best people I know, hands down.  I find myself smiling at him from across the room.

I've let my other crushes fall to the wayside, they've turned me down and found lovers later on, or I've just been a stupid piece of shit and fucked things up during the process and could have landed a great guy otherwise.

Minor Blips:

I hung with one guy after talking awhile.  We didn't do anything sexual.  I said hi and he didn't respond back for half a month.  He tried to have sex with me without directly stating it, then asked to date.  I turned him down and he went the whole "I've got plenty of other guys." route.  I guess getting turned down is hard.  I know it is.

Blue October

The Answer

Breakfast After 10

Italian Radio

Drama Everything

Balance Beam

X-Amount of Words
Conversation Via Radio (Do You Ever Wonder)

The entire History For Sale CD.

I'm pretty sure this list will grow as I listen to more of their music, but I have to say these are my favorites at this point. The band is quality, there is no denying that.

I saw them in concert on new years eve with my sister.  They put on a great LONG show.

I make this to leave nothing out. So, I won't.

27 // 6 feet tall // 164 pounds // thin // hairy // slight belly // unkempt // no muscle tone or definition // bad gums // bad teeth //

unemployed -- single -- lost -- depressed -- lazy -- bad dresser -- no home -- dirty car

So - I have a year.  I'd like to see where I end up from here.

My goal is to be

28

fit/toned

well dressed

healthy teeth and gums

employed

positive

I'd like to live alone so that I can be alone.  Read, watch shows, catch up on my back-catalogs.  Fall asleep, take naps, cook and explore.  Do things on my own.  I'm okay with getting a low cost/financially responsible setup going.  I just don't want roommates.  I don't want to have to answer to anyone for anything.  Mainly for people to think that I need to answer to them for anything.

Teeth are gonna be simple.  It's a commitment issue.  I have the time, just need to make the will. Brush when waking and before bed.  Floss after eating.  Get proper dental care.  Just do it.